Thursday, January 8, 2009

My lover calls to me

For those of you who are married, you would, without a doubt, be able to discern your lover's voice no matter how strange it sounded. After years or even months of being together, you've learned every nuance to their voice, and it likely stirs something within you.

We are to be the same way with God. "My beloved speaks and says to me, 'Arise my love, my beautiful one, and come away..." (SOS 2:10). When He whispers to us in the night, we should be moved...awakened. There is also wisdom that comes in knowing when our Beloved is speaking to us. It is vital to our faith that we hear and respond to the call of our Shepherd, lest we veer from the path He's set out for us.

Currently, I'm straining to hear Him. I've got a restlessness in my heart that is driving me crazy. I can't figure out if it is just my own discontentment brought about because my flesh is telling me God isn't enough in some area of my life, or if God is urging me in a new direction and the Spirit within me is responding in spite of my flesh's lack of faith. One reason I haven't heard is because I haven't stopped fretting/worrying/jabbering about this problem enough to actually hear His voice. It's amazing what happens when we close our mouths and open our ears.

That's always been one of my problems...I talk at God too much. Yes, "at" is the correct word here. It's like when someone walks up to you and begins talking 100 miles a minute, and you slowly start tuning them out. No longer are you engaged in a conversation, you're just waiting for them to be quiet so maybe you could say something. God, in His infinite patience and faithfulness has not tuned me out, of course. Nay, He is just waiting for me to wait on Him.

At any rate, God is always moving, and I will determine to be eager, not anxious, about what He's up to.

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